Thoughts in Tahoe

My life has changed 2 weeks ago. I moved into a new family after being with one for almost 6 years. That was a huge step, not easy, but worth it. My life has changed quit since then. I am waking up every morning at 6 am (used to be 7.15 am) and I am going to bed around 9 pm. I work almost 12 hours (with little breaks here and there). Overall my days are longer, but work is less stressful and I focus on one task at a time compared to juggling 2 kids, household, laundry and cooking.

I haven't seen my friends like I used to and some don't even call or text because they know I don't have time to meet. I haven't been in a relationship in so long and lately have been thinking about why not and how come I have been single for over 3 years. It's not like I don't meet anyone, it's not like I am unattractive, my feet stink or have bad breath. I believe I am a good person at heard, I have great values, my mom taught be good manners and I have respect for people any kind and background.
So why is it that I am single? Is it me ( not you?!). Am I too picky, too shallow, what am I looking for anyways? There have been 2-3 great men in my life the past years which would have made me very happy, but something wasn't there... the click, the heartbeat that tells me "he's the one", the feeling of "he is the one and only".
I know what I want, I know what kind of men I am looking for and I am very open, straight forward and usually get what I want and go for what I want. I am not a patient kind of girl and for me it's all or nothing, which scares some away...

I guess I just don't settle for anyone or less and don't want to keep up with things I am not ok with, just so I can say I have someone in my life.
Girls drive me crazy sometimes. They are in a relationship and complain without wondering if they might be the issue. They go crazy, fight over stupid things and make a scene over nothing, but I guess unless the guy stays it's not that bad.
Men are weird to me. They ask for an intelligent, good looking, great personality, can cook and clean, is good with kids, is funny and has style and a heart and gets along with my mother great type of a woman, but when they meet her they back out and rather go for the trashy girls...

Life is a mystery and I am slowly figuring it out. you have to start with yourself first and then others. You need to love and accept yourself in order to love and respect and accept others. Respect yourself. Value what you have and love what God has given you.