Thoughts in Tahoe

My life has changed 2 weeks ago. I moved into a new family after being with one for almost 6 years. That was a huge step, not easy, but worth it. My life has changed quit since then. I am waking up every morning at 6 am (used to be 7.15 am) and I am going to bed around 9 pm. I work almost 12 hours (with little breaks here and there). Overall my days are longer, but work is less stressful and I focus on one task at a time compared to juggling 2 kids, household, laundry and cooking.

I haven't seen my friends like I used to and some don't even call or text because they know I don't have time to meet. I haven't been in a relationship in so long and lately have been thinking about why not and how come I have been single for over 3 years. It's not like I don't meet anyone, it's not like I am unattractive, my feet stink or have bad breath. I believe I am a good person at heard, I have great values, my mom taught be good manners and I have respect for people any kind and background.
So why is it that I am single? Is it me ( not you?!). Am I too picky, too shallow, what am I looking for anyways? There have been 2-3 great men in my life the past years which would have made me very happy, but something wasn't there... the click, the heartbeat that tells me "he's the one", the feeling of "he is the one and only".
I know what I want, I know what kind of men I am looking for and I am very open, straight forward and usually get what I want and go for what I want. I am not a patient kind of girl and for me it's all or nothing, which scares some away...

I guess I just don't settle for anyone or less and don't want to keep up with things I am not ok with, just so I can say I have someone in my life.
Girls drive me crazy sometimes. They are in a relationship and complain without wondering if they might be the issue. They go crazy, fight over stupid things and make a scene over nothing, but I guess unless the guy stays it's not that bad.
Men are weird to me. They ask for an intelligent, good looking, great personality, can cook and clean, is good with kids, is funny and has style and a heart and gets along with my mother great type of a woman, but when they meet her they back out and rather go for the trashy girls...

Life is a mystery and I am slowly figuring it out. you have to start with yourself first and then others. You need to love and accept yourself in order to love and respect and accept others. Respect yourself. Value what you have and love what God has given you.

1 week down

My first week at my new home and I LOVE it. I moved in on Sunday, Feb 6th. It was a busy, stressful day, but worth every minute planning, getting frustrated and stressing out over minor details. My room is gorgeous. My own bathroom and a bigger bed than what I used to have. My closet is small, BUT I made it work and I love looking at it.

This week has been busy and I believe I work more hours than I used to at my old job, but there is no more stress, no more running around thinking of 1000 things to do. It is laid back, easy going and THE best part- the family shows me a lot of love and appreciation. Overall this week has been long, but very, very good.

Tomorrow Peppi will move in, and I cannot wait. I missed my little puppy baby <3

the sweetest little thing

He makes me happy. He is crazy, wild, jealous and VERY protective. He calms down and is the sweetest guy. I love him, even he pees on friends. i love him because I know he loves me, even when I don't spend hours rubbing his little stomach, petting him and smooching him. His eyes get me. It is love when you don't mind getting kisses all over the face, when he ruins your new shoes after wearing them ONE night only, when he destroys your homework (not an excuse) or eats 2 cell phone chargers and your new blackberry phone. I love him and his little face makes me happy even when I am sad and all I want to do is cry my eyes out.

Moving

things that make me happy, ALWAYS

Only 2 more days and I will be moving. I am packing my suitcase and I am taking everything and anything. I have way too much stuff- shoes, clothing, books, lamps, candles, picture frames and everything else a girl NEEDS and LOVES.

Life has been crazy lately, but I cannot complain. I always find to seem a way out, sooner than later and I can count my blessings. I took a big step 4 weeks ago when I decided I am moving in with another family. After 5 years I decided to leave my current family (for many reasons, which I do not need to further discuss). It was hard, painful and it broke my heart at first, but I still don't regret the decision I made and I know it was God's calling an it is according to His plan. Things have been hectic, crazy, stressful, overwhelming and just different for ALL of us.
People saw my decision and it seemed that I made it easy on myself, but its not always what it seems...but all in all I am happy, stressed out, but strong, confident and determine for MY future.

This is my first blog and I don't know how long I will last but I would love to keep it up and keep people updated. I love the idea of sharing my thoughts, what's going on in my life and about random thoughts with friends and even strangers.

Tomorrow is my last day working for this family... It will be sad, but I know He is with me.